Feb 16, 2026

Being depressed sucks. Most people think of it as being extremely sad, but at least in my case that's not it. Right now I feel nothing. As in, I should be sad, maybe? But I just can't. There's just this sensation of heaviness that tells me that I should be feeling something, but I don't. I'm just... here.

That thing, when combined with ADHD makes for a weird cocktail. I'm inattentive, and with that comes impaired motivation. I can do things when there's interest, urgency, challenge or novelty. Right now I'm extremely stressed, and while my depression makes me not want to do anything, my stress-ridden brain jump-starts me into action because of the urgency. I end up being a weird robot doing things without the slightest motivation, but doing them nonetheless.

This is a short post with no title (I call them "updates"). It's meant to be a single, simple, and short idea. Think of it like a tweet without the hate-speech.