Short posts on random thoughts and things I notice in the world. This is my own Twitter (RIP). For medium to long form posts, visit the blog.
Things I used to get excited about:
Food, travel, concerts, going to the beach, buying gadgets, going to the movies, getting a new record, getting a new book.
Things I get excited about now:
None.
And, stupidly, I just realized, despite my diagnostic, that this is not my entire personality, that I'm really being affected by this thing that makes everything dull. It's like having a low-contrast black and white filter on life.
I'm fine, though. I'm not doing bad. I'm just doing boring.
Living with persistent depressive disorder sucks. You're functional, you wake up, shower, work, do social things, you have a productive life. But you're never excited about anything, ever.
Even the depression is mild.
Not a cry for help, mind you, just a note for myself.
I subscribed to omg.lol today, mainly motivated for the mas.to downtime on Oct 1. I wish I did it before! it's full of cool and useful things, many of them unexpected for me (like a full-fledged git service, for instance).
This is not the goal of this post, but if you're thinking of signing up, here's my referral link. :)
I love traveling. For pleasure, work, it doesnt matter. But 24 hours before departing I get a bad anxiety peak that ends when I'm sitting in the plane.
Every single time.
Chalino Unplugged.
The cool thing about getting a new iPhone is The smoothness of the experience. Unless you're new to iOS, everything is always exactly the same.
The thing that sucks is also that it's always exactly the same.
You get a brand new iPhone, set it up, and five minutes later you've somehow had it for six years.
I spent a few days (couple hours a day) vibecoding a mac app for my personal archive notes and my work notes.
Turns out I was vibecoding a shitty version of Obsidian.
Lesson learned, again 😬
Watched Tony last night. I've always been inspired by Anthony Bourdain, but now I feel like I'm going fully into the rabbit hole of rewatching No Reservations, Parts Unknown, etcétera.
My partner is just learning about the guy. I already have Roadrunner ready for her, and I'm so excited.
Don't you love the recommendation high when somebody you appreciate doesn't know something you deeply care about? I'm riding that high right now.
I started journaling again this weekend, after a couple of months of inactivity. I'm surprised every time by the mental clarity and peace it brings.
Impostor syndrome never goes away, it just lingers in the shadows, waiting.